That's What's Important: Eridan x Reader

You sigh looking at your phone.
Your boyfriend Eridan was clearly in one of his moods again... You read the text messages over again holding back your tears. "You knoww none of this means anything right? You and I? Wwe don't mean anything. I could do so much better than you. You should be thankful I'm even sticking around wwith your sorry ass."
You close your phone as the first few tears fall onto the back of your hand. But just like that, the flood gates opened and you start to sob uncontrollably.
Why was this happening? You both were so happy. It seemed like it was a match made in heaven, but even heaven has its mistakes at times. Eridan was your best friend, your boyfriend, and the one person you felt safe with in this world. The one person you loved most in this world. But something in him changed... You couldn't understand what it was until a month ago when Eridan's father explained to you how depression runs in their family. You wanted to be there for him through this but it was hard. His loving words turned to abuse and hate. His kind smile turned into a scowl that punched you in the gut everytime he looked at you. Your safe place had turned into a place of abuse. And you blamed yourself.
You convinced yourself that you deserved his abuse and hateful words. If you hadn't done something wrong he wouldn't lash out at you. If you hadn't messed up one of his fits wouldn't be happening. If you weren't such a horrible and unloveable person, he wouldn't be pointing it out. The more you blamed yourself for everything going on the more you grew to hate yourself.
You sat there and looked at your phone as the hurtful messages from Eridan streamed in. As you lay in bed that night you close your eyes ignoring your buzzing phone. You thought to yourself "how did you fuck all this up... What did you possibly do to cause this... Why did you turn your happy relationship into a bad one...?" But then something clicked. "It's not your fault. You didn't cause his depression. It runs in his family. It's no ones fault." You grabbed your phone and open your messages. You love Eridan but this is something you have to do.
"Eridan, we're over. I can't be with you anymore. I love you but I just can't. I'm sorry."
For the next few weeks Eridan tried to talk to you but you ignored him at all costs. You tried to hang out with your friends more and avoid being alone. You couldn't bare to be alone. Whenever you were alone you thought about all the things Eridan said, you still hated yourself and now you hated yourself for letting the person you love go. But then a month passed and then 2 months and 3.
As time went on you still loved Eridan, but you stopped being sad about everything. Then one day while you were home alone you put your head phones in and out on your favorite playlist. You want into the bathroom in your pjs and throw your bed head up into a messy ponytail. With your music blasting in your ears you look at your own reflection. For the first time in a long time, you didn't hate what you saw. You liked the color of your eyes and the curve of your jaw line. You liked the color of your lips and the mess you call hair. You liked yourself again.
You smile and start rocking out to the music playing. You laugh and dance and smile to yourself in the mirror. You could finally love yourself again. And that's what's important.
Even if things don't work hour how you want them to. You must always love yourself.